I should have known better-- it was too good to be true, too wonderful to last, too special to be real. Worse than a beautiful dream, it was only a taste of incredible ecstasy, a brief moment of reality just enough to spoil me, before it vanished into eternity. Now I am shattered, torn into a million pieces, spilling hot tears and trembling in silence, as relentless pain overwhelms me. Still, I must pretend, smile and say everything's okay when nothing is-- no one else can ever know-- but only for me to wonder, deep inside, what love really is. --2/20/93
