I'm a college girl, they say, sophisticated and scholarly, A woman of the world, religiously independent-- Yet, I gaze here through the curtained panes. The pale gray mist, nightly enveloping the lighted city, is lifted Gently by the soft sunbeams that peek across the campus landscape. But the invisible barrier separates me still From my beloved. The blue-purple hills That meet the clouds--he is far, far beyond. He is entranced, lost in the enchantment Of her spell--she, who has stolen his heart And dares to keep it. 'Tis in a green valley, With wild flowers and clear breezes; They laugh, they work, they sleep, For she is simple. He adores her very spirit. Together they share life's joys, life's secrets. For many months she has claimed him; she has known The beat of his heart, the pulse of his sighs. His affection, his loyalty, his devotion he gave To her, his own pride. But no more. He graduates. Today he leaves her, nothing Save a rosy memory to torture our blood. I saw how he looked at her, how she was part Of him, how every nerve and muscle responds To her bidding. You say it's jealousy. I only know I love him; she has no right To hold him, to wrench his soul from mine. When can I laugh in long-awaited tears of fulfillment And see her give him up, give him back Into my arms, into my embrace, where He belongs? She is no saint, although Her name reflects it. Tonight, at last, He shall be mine! And then, beyond the purple hills, She must live without him, without his smile, Without the touch of his hand, or the sound Of his voice. Without the dedicated Sacrifice, the years of his life That he has given her. He's coming home to me! Am I dreaming? Yet, shall she not retain his loyalty and pride? Shall she not Find her spot forever in the heart that he Would promise to me? Shall we share eternally Our minds with unwelcome reminiscence? I am young as well; my charm lies as a pearl In a field of diamonds. She is A many-sided gem, sparkling and glowing In his dreams. Our destiny shall not be left to her. She, San Pasqual, must relinquish him, And I will take him, hold him, cherish him-- And love him... --6/1/64